I'm still ruminating over the movie version of Claude-Michel Schönberg's LES MISERABLES. I saw it this afternoon.
I sat next to my mother-in-law who was seeing it for the first time and she wept through most of the 2 hours and 40 minutes. She was undone.
I was reminded for the first time in a long while how much this story and these songs have shaped my life values and convictions. While we are living on this earth, the victims of temporal suffering and evil need hope that this isn't all there is.
"Will you join in our crusade? Who will be strong and stand with me? Somewhere beyond the barricade is there a world you long to see?"
I told my 16 year old, who was thumbs down after the credits had begun to roll, that "this movie is a big reason why I chose a career of volunteer service in Christian ministry." (I also told him, as he complained about it just being 'wrong' that his favorite action actors were singing through an entire movie, to not say another word. Well, actually, I think what I really said was, "Shut up and stop proving how small minded and shallow you still are.")
That Bishop welcomed the homeless to his table. The Bishop made his generous offer of the silver candlesticks and told the thief "I have bought your soul for God." Jean Valjean, the thief wrestles with how to continue in his stone hearted life.
The heart of anger born of despair chooses the hope of God's ability to make him a better man.
I want to be that Bishop.
To be generous in forgiveness. To offer hope. To speak genuine positivity that breeds courage. Even in the face of hardness and opposition. I want to stand firm in my belief that affirming and serving others is a costly but worthwhile way to invest my life.
Even when it's toward my 16 year old who dares to mock such inspiration.
In an unusual niche combo: Jesus and Theatre have been my 2 lifetime passions. Here's where I've journaled the adventure.
January 21, 2013
Something New for the Creatives in Singapore
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November 12, 2012
The Last Time I Was in Egypt...Teaching Playback Theatre
“Mark here, will teach
script writing. Julisa will take the directing track. And we have two
performing tracks. Chuck will teach acting, and Kimberly…Kimberly…,” the
sponsor Essam paused and looked to me for help. “She will teach something…something new called Playback.”
This is how the trainers for a Drama Conference in Upper
Egypt were introduced to the 120 participants gathered for 3 ½ days of training
over the leap year weekend in 2008.
As the participants made their choices for which foreign
teacher they would be with for the weekend, they wanted more information. Essam
invited me to explain, to pitch the Playback track. I stood with my interpreter
and addressed a sea of eager faces. This was their first Christian Conference
solely focusing on drama training ever and they wanted to make the right
choice. I did my best to explain.
“From the first time I saw Playback in 2002, I have been
excited about the possibilities of this new form of theatre. It is new, created
in 1975 in USA, but now there is an International Playback Theatre Network, and
there are teams which practice it all over the world. It is simple, beautiful,
inexpensive, and powerful, even when performed by amateurs. It also seems that
it can be all these things in any language or culture. In a lifetime of being a
theatre practitioner, I’ve seen nothing else that makes the most of what
theatre has to offer that is special and different than television and films.
Theatre, you see, is an immediate art form. The live audience is as important to
the success of each show as the actors, play, or any technical element added.
Playback is improvised theatre that takes the fun of improv – like the
television show “Who’s Line is it Anyway?” and gives it depth and purpose
beyond just entertainment. Why? Because the stories, the content of the plays
come from the audience. The audience is part of the creative process. The lives
of ordinary people become the subject of art. In teaching you Playback, I don’t
have to worry about my understanding arabic or the nuances of your beautiful
culture. You already know what is taboo, you already know what is funny. I will
teach you how to improvise it on stage with adaptable rituals we use in
Playback, and you will be ready to perform anywhere and anytime. Come learn playback
with me this weekend and be perhaps the very the first to know it and use it in
North Africa.”
Sixteen brave souls signed up for the Playback track, which,
even after the introduction still felt like a mystery to them. But thankfully
for me, they jumped in with both feet from the very first session; giving
themselves wholeheartedly to the process of learning Playback. My translator
kept remarking about their enthusiasm unhesitating involvement. She said, “I
can’t believe they’re doing this! It’s especially unusual for upper Egyptians,
because they tend to be more reserved and conservative.”
Where to Begin?
Concentration, Observation & Working as a Team
After quick intros in a circle (name/sound/action then
everyone immediately copies), I started with an exercise called Diamond
Ensemble, a variation on the acting “Mirror exercise” where partners
face one another and copy the actions of the leader to the nth degree of
exactness. Diamond Ensemble uses 4 people facing the same direction, 3
following the one in the front. There are 3 simple rules: 1. Go very slowly, 2.
Don’t make any movements in front of your body, 3. Change leadership when the
person in front turns their head more than ¼ turn to the right or left. When
done even moderately well, it can look like a choreographed dance. It forces
the participants to concentrate, forget about themselves, and pay attention to
details. People thought that it was Playback. But I told them that we were just
starting off with some exercises and games that would help them in Playback
later.
What Did You Learn?
We debriefed the Diamond Ensemble; how it felt, & what
they learned. It’s always rewarding to hear people share what the experience
brought to them. I asked them how they felt about worshipping God with their
bodies. I shared with them how important this has been for me. I believe we all
have Spiritual temperaments that long to worship God in more ways than the
typical tradition and ritual, Bible study, or celebration in a congregation
singing worship songs. There are some of us who best worship God and hear from
him by being in nature, or through care giving, or activism – fighting
injustice or a righteous cause, there are others who are drawn to simplicity –
the ascetics, and then there are some like me who best worship and sense God’s
presence through our senses. Through beauty and our body we know his presence
or sense his love. An exercise like Diamond Ensemble can be a profoundly
worshipful experience when we are moving to worship music or meditating on a
passage of Scripture.
For the conference, I’d chosen Isaiah 61:1-4 to be a theme
passage and asked them to read it aloud. Later we would try the Diamond
Ensemble with the phrases of this passage rolling around in our minds, and
sometimes being called out by the leader, or repeated by the group.
But this was all we had time for in our first night
together.
Day Two: More
Exercises to Prepare for Playback
To work on creating pictures, getting comfortable in one
another’s space, and creating depth and levels on stage, we worked on some Sculptures
to go with the themes of Isaiah 61:1-4. In teams I observed them
discussing and planning at length what they would do and started to worry that
they’d ever get to a point this weekend of being able to instantaneously make a
Fluid Sculpture or a Freeze Frame Story without first discussing it. But this
was an important step in the process and they made pictures reflecting “Release
for the prisoners,” “Rebuild the ancient ruins.” And two for “Day of Judgment.”
On the second day I introduced the Fish Tank. “This is kind
of a crazy exercise. You’ll think there is no point to it, but you will see
later how important it is.”
I asked them to begin walking around the room to fill the
space and not bump into one another. Clap once to start. Two times they freeze. One clap they
start again. Then we added a three clap to freeze with an emotion. They started
to pay attention to each other as I eliminated the claps and challenged them to
start and stop as simultaneously as possible.
Next we eliminated the clapping. Anyone in the group can
stop, and if we’re paying attention to one another, the whole group stops.
Anyone can start again and we all will follow. I know there are some that like
to be the leader, so we’ll limit you to only stopping or starting the group 3
times. Let’s add ages to our walks. I’ll call out “Young child,” or “proud
teenager,” or “elderly person” and try your best to copy one another even in
the way you portray these ages. It was getting harder!
What’s the point? Is all of this just silliness? Definitely
not. They finally got it. They finally started to act as a unit, to start and
stop together, sensing organically when to begin, and when to stop.
Later when they were learning all the forms of Playback
which require the group to sense when the action needs to come to a stop, they
had gotten really good at this.
I kept reminding them of the Fish Tank exercise “You see?
You thought I was crazy, but now you know how to stop together, you listen and
pay attention to each other. You sense it among yourselves.” I added, “If you
are paying attention, and not just about you trying to be a star, you will know
what to do, your imagination will take over, and on the spot you will make up
something that fits, and works together as a group.”
Almost Ready to Start
The class came in from their lunch break with the room
transformed into a Playback performance space. It heightened our expectation of
what was finally going to happen. But we still needed to know how, so we took
some time to read through and translate the descriptions of the setting, and
the players. Having reviewed Jo Salas’ Improvising Real Life, I had made
a handout of the nuts and bolts of who does what and how they do it, and how it
all works. Before the trip, I’d had some Egyptian friends in LA help with
translating the key words, and now I was running down the list of names and
descriptions: the conductor, the teller, the actors, the musician, the cloth
tree and what is a transformation or correction? I taught them some about how
to look and listen for the “essence” of the story, and the structure of
stories. We talked about the structure of playback: the conductor’s interview
of a teller, the setting up, the enactment, the acknowledgment and “bringing it
back to the teller.” It was sometimes tedious to get through these descriptions
with translation, but I tried to break it up with activities or exercises to
keep us from getting bogged down in words (or wearing out Dalia my
translator!). I interspersed some vocal and physical warm ups, and we even had
fun with a mini mime lesson: grabbing the steering wheel of a car, and how to
get in and out of a car.
Finally we were ready to invite some classmates to the
teller’s chair and try out some scenes. We had some terrific stories. Pets
running out into busy streets, jumping off running trains, being stranded at
JFK airport in New York, finally being free to be myself. I fell in love with
my students as I picked up some Arabic along the way. But the phrase I’ll never
forget is:
Yalluna Netfallug… “Let’s Watch!”
November 11, 2012
Ethnodoxicologists...What do you call a Filmmaker?
If a musician is an Ethnomusicologist, and a theatre artists is an Ethnodramacologist.
Is a filmmaker an Ethnomoviecologist?
Stephen Cadd grew up a missionary kid in the Philippines. He was always crazy about movies, but found it frustrating that all the films about the Gospel in the library of the Bible School where his parents worked were all Made in America.
As an adult he founded Sword Produtions a film production company committed to helping indigenous peoples make films that suit their own cultures. From their website:
The power of a dramatic film for evangelistic use cannot be overstated. Years of experience have shown this to be one of the most useful tools for evangelism in the 21ST century. Sword Productions has pioneered in producing such films for fifteen twenty years. The cost is very reasonable, considering the fact that the numerical results for the out-reaching churches or groups are quite astonishing.
Check out the link for a fascinating company using media for the gospel.
Is a filmmaker an Ethnomoviecologist?
Stephen Cadd grew up a missionary kid in the Philippines. He was always crazy about movies, but found it frustrating that all the films about the Gospel in the library of the Bible School where his parents worked were all Made in America.
As an adult he founded Sword Produtions a film production company committed to helping indigenous peoples make films that suit their own cultures. From their website:
The power of a dramatic film for evangelistic use cannot be overstated. Years of experience have shown this to be one of the most useful tools for evangelism in the 21ST century. Sword Productions has pioneered in producing such films for fifteen twenty years. The cost is very reasonable, considering the fact that the numerical results for the out-reaching churches or groups are quite astonishing.
Check out the link for a fascinating company using media for the gospel.
October 06, 2012
A Prayer of Thanksgiving and Petition for Creativity
If you're reading and you have the time to approach this article as a devotional, I want you to start by watching this video prayerfully. Here is my prayer. You can join me in it.
Lord,
As I watch this BBC video with images of your creation, help me to know you better and see who You are more clearly. Thrill my soul with this visual revelation and reminders of how incomparable you are as an artist. Inspire me to worship and serve you more fully, freely and wholly...
Lord, you take my breath away! Open my eyes that I might see the wildness, and beauty and creativity in your creation as often as I breathe or eat. I pray that you will fill me with a growing ability to be like you in creativity. Let me draw near you and learn from you that I might join you in inspiring others to enjoy such lavish, even 'wild' creativity, and let that in us be part of what draws the lost to you. I pray for your church, Lord, that this creative nature of yours be embraced and celebrated.
Lord,
As I watch this BBC video with images of your creation, help me to know you better and see who You are more clearly. Thrill my soul with this visual revelation and reminders of how incomparable you are as an artist. Inspire me to worship and serve you more fully, freely and wholly...
Lord, you take my breath away! Open my eyes that I might see the wildness, and beauty and creativity in your creation as often as I breathe or eat. I pray that you will fill me with a growing ability to be like you in creativity. Let me draw near you and learn from you that I might join you in inspiring others to enjoy such lavish, even 'wild' creativity, and let that in us be part of what draws the lost to you. I pray for your church, Lord, that this creative nature of yours be embraced and celebrated.
I run in the
path of your commands for you have set my heart free. Psalm 119:32
October 04, 2012
Sharing @ Singapore Bible College: Created in the image of God who is creative.
My heart's desire is to
inspire you to more fully embrace a communicable attribute of God: His Creativity.
Creativity is a part of his nature that he has put in all of you to varying degrees.
I know
that embracing creativity will draw you closer in your relationship with the Creator.
I
know it will make you far more interesting and well rounded.
Since you are or
will be leaders in your churches, and because you love him, you desire to be
witnesses to the world of the hope we have in Jesus. I want to inspire you, the students in the SBC’s Student Missionary
Fellowship (and the readers of this article!) to be free to explore the fullness of God’s creativity in your experience of Christianity.
Q: What's holds us back?
Much of what we practice in our
faith as evangelical believers comes from a cognitive approach to faith.
Those who are wired, or drawn toward knowing God primarily through the study of and preaching of God's word are also the ones who are drawn toward vocational ministry or teaching in our churches. They teach out of their blessed experience that this THE WAY to know and walk with God. Much of our New Testament and theology was penned by the strong role model we have in the left-brain scholar/leader the Apostle Paul. Because of this we almost exclusively taught and use what some have called our left brain as we approach and experience him.
This group here today are Bible School students, so I would presume to guess that many of you are very comfortable with this cognitive approach to our Christianity. You experience God and hear him profoundly as you read and study the Word of God, or listen to a sermon or lecture.
Yet, after
seeing that video (in the previous post), you are reminded of God's incredible diversity and beauty in creation.
In light of this, I want to
suggest that God has blessed those he created in his image with a diversity of
ways we can experience Him, draw near Him, hear from him and share his good news with others.
Q: What do you mean by a diversity of approaches?
It may come as a surprise to some of you that there are those who feel more close to him as you walk in the Botanic Gardens,
or care for those who suffer,
or through disciplines of solitude, simplicity, fasting
or on your own sitting in his
presence and adoring him.
You might think of traditions as dry and meaningless,
but there are many who love ritual and
tradition because they know God better in and through them. In them, we identify with countless believers through the ages as we follow a church
calendar/liturgy or certain rituals.
Did you know that God created
some of us wired to best experience life and God himself through our senses and beauty? This type of wiring isn’t celebrated or even
acknowledged in many of our churches. Our senses? The word sensual has negative connotations, and we rarely hear sermons from Song of Songs or Ecclessiates, or the laments in Psalms. We don't look to John the Baptist as a role model. God wired some of his children to approach him best through their sense and beauty, and these, by and large are the Artists among us. The ones who seem a little too “out there.” Quite frankly, they seem a little wild and dangerous! Quite a bit like some of the wildlife we saw in that video of God's creation!
Q: What is the positive and negative impact in a church where
creative believers are released to explore the arts in the mission of the
church?
You can be sure that any
creatively wired people here are resonating with what I’ve been talking about.
You’re glad that the organisers have chosen this topic for
today!
So, let’s just start with the positive impact of TODAY: Merely bringing it up gives a group of people here a
fresh affirmation that God did indeed make you artistic and creative and he
loves you for it. It give you hope. From my lifetime experience in the
evangelical church, I know many of creative believers are withering in our
churches.
There are also some negatives: Those who don’t yet know Jesus
who are wired this way will not be drawn to him when the appealing, radical, creative
part of his nature is hidden in our worship and expression of faith.
BUT, I know why you resist. I admit it. Artists are...
- messy
- moody
- misunderstood
- easily offended
- can seem undisciplined
- love spontaneity and improvisation (when the other need a PLAN)
- they are not likely to be grounded in their discipleship or the Word.
And so the more logical lovers of order and protocols who lead the church keep these people leashed, or even worse, try to change them into their image. (Well, I have to admit, changing some of those things on this list is a very good idea! I'm glad Rory Noland wrote his books for artists on Christian Character Formation, The Heart of the Artist, and Thriving as an Artist.
The biggest negative of all is: If we’re not engaging and empowering and sharing what that extra dose of creativity God has put in the Artists among us, we are sadly experiencing, worshipping, and sharing only part of what he is.
Q: Many feel that arts are only for professionals and rarely experience
creativity and stand on the sidelines. What are ways that non-professionals can
be engaged and drawn in to join on the mission of God?
Ok. Imagine I’m 6
years old and I’ve just learned to make a paper airplane with my other 6 year
old friends and we have fun flying them and seeing how far they will go. I’m
excited to show it to my dad. I’ve enjoyed learning how to make it, see how
well it flies…and I want to give it to him. Now, my dad works for NASA and is a
pilot for Space Shuttles. He’s flown rockets and has a doctorate in Aerospace
Engineering. This little airplane is silly compared to what he knows and can
do. But how do you think my father will respond to receiving this gift?
Do you see the allegory?
Let's face it. Even professional art isn't much better than a paper airplane compared to the ART we saw in that "Wonderful World" video!
I can BET you’ve had a lifetime of being
hammered into believing that art has no value unless it is professional,
excellent art (however one might define excellent!).
That is rubbish and a lie
from the pit of hell where the Deceiver has convinced so many hearts and minds to not even try. Perhaps even the majority of hearts and minds.
God wants us to enjoy creativity, just because it is
enjoyable to create.
There is value in the process. Engaging, practicing the
arts is a way we can share in a part of what makes us different from the other
animals and made in His image.
I would guess that many of your
background in engaging the arts was taking years of piano or violin lessons
that came with exams on how you must play the correct way. Or maybe you were
more than once embarrassed by what a teacher or a peer said about an art
project you made in primary school. No. Stop it. Not everyone is going to be a
professional, but that doesn’t mean you can get great joy from exploring and
dabbling, and using that right half of your brain which God also made and
called “good”.
So what if you are an amateur?
Go
ahead. Make your own greeting cards, carry around a sketch book, learn how to
decorate cakes, take a guitar class, or a singing class, or learn flamenco
dancing, respond to something that has moved you with writing a poem about it.
You will be more spiritually whole when you do.
September 18, 2012
Best Books for Prep in Cross Cultural Work
For me, in recent years I've focused on Playback/improv as a basic toolkit when working across cultures. Enter admitting I'm a novice of their culture and don't want to download more American culture and styles they've picked up from movies and imported TV shows.
I want to explore with them and see what and how THEY use drama and tell their stories, and I give them some fresh tools they can massage and make their own.
ALSO:
In our esteem, the BEST books on prep for working cross culturally are by Sherwood and Judith Lingenfelter (from Biola then Fuller). They both have their doctorates in Cultural Anthropology and have taught for years at both Biola and Fuller. They do a lot of training with Wycliffe and other organizations.
I think these books should be required reading for EVERYONE working cross culturally. Brilliant, insightful. Would save A LOT of mess ups.
October 02, 2011
Being Rude and Not Even Knowing...Until later...
I was attending the TCA College graduation. Since 2006 I've been teaching college level theatre courses to those who want to use drama/creative arts in ministry. At the reception, I meet and get into conversation with a Board Member and a Richard Goetz professor of Theology, who comments about the power of the arts, and how Christian Churches are missing out on embracing the arts for worship and outreach. I feel like we're clicking in this conversation, so I make a comment along these lines:
I went home last night and saw an interview with this faculty member in the Graduation Booklet:
Ooops. I now imagine that he thought my comments were in critical response to his interview. Duh. Nope, I was just being guilelessly honest about my experience and what I wrestle with as an artist.
I struggle sometimes with the paradox of generating excitement for practicing arts as ministry, because there will never be any income in it to speak of. I've spent my entire life devoted to exploring how to use arts in ministry, and though the thanks and praise were abundant, only on one hand can I count the years I was remunerated more than $500. That's what some churches will pay a one time guest speaker. And yet, they'll ask me to work longer and harder preparing a sketch for worship that supports his message....
Still, God has given me this passion and calling, so I keep having to put such facts at his feet. He has always provided for me, in other ways, but it's harder to have faith in his provision for my students, when I know they are destined to have the same sense of being devalued for the gifts in ministry God has given them and I am fanning into flame.
I went home last night and saw an interview with this faculty member in the Graduation Booklet:
"My passion is for the classroom...I told myself that this was so great that I will do this even if they don't pay me. When you find your passion you know it, because you can honestly say I will do this even if they did not pay me."
Ooops. I now imagine that he thought my comments were in critical response to his interview. Duh. Nope, I was just being guilelessly honest about my experience and what I wrestle with as an artist.
October 01, 2011
Playback Theatre Intro Links
Getting ready to teach some playback, here's what I passed on to participants.
A written description of how to
(buy Improvising Real Life by Jo Salas for the book on it!):
http://spicetolife2.blogspot.com/2005/11/playback-how-tos.html
overview of one particular theatre company (remember: each performing group is a bit different based on the personalities they bring to the group)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77ruQ67Hwbs&feature=related
Fluid sculpture
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cB5KISbZIE&feature=related
Pairs (using too much text!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-RFgOTKXz6k&feature=related
storytelling demonstration
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zDC89VCD74&feature=related
A written description of how to
(buy Improvising Real Life by Jo Salas for the book on it!):
http://spicetolife2.blogspot.com/2005/11/playback-how-tos.html
overview of one particular theatre company (remember: each performing group is a bit different based on the personalities they bring to the group)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77ruQ67Hwbs&feature=related
Fluid sculpture
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cB5KISbZIE&feature=related
Pairs (using too much text!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-RFgOTKXz6k&feature=related
storytelling demonstration
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zDC89VCD74&feature=related
March 13, 2011
Japan Relief Through Network of Christian ministries
Our ministry connections from Japan are all recommending this network: If you are looking for a way to respond to the disaster in Japan, here is one excellent option. We'll have a way to do online donating soon! http://crashjapan.com/
March 08, 2011
Post CoLab Rant
To Creatives among Jesus' flock.
The venue first rate.
The goodies just great.
But a 'CoLab', it simply was not.
It was exciting to roll up the escalator with a sense of expectation.
I've been praying for this as an outside/insider for 2 months since i heard of it.
Two text messages had come from friends who were already there: "The place is packed."
I was arriving quite late. I'd been praying since 5PM when it began, but I just couldn't get there when it was to start. I had anticipated it was more like an open house kind of event, more organic, which would have people coming and going between 5 and 8PM. Maybe stay later if they were having a good time.
I was kindly greeted by outgoing happy strangers who wanted me to feel welcomed. But my heart sank when one of them chased me into the hall and required me to give my particulars on a registration card in exchange for the clever little packet/notebook that had just been given to me.
I kid you not, that's what they said, "You need to fill this out in exchange for the packet."
But, I reasoned, this is the Singapore way. Why should this night be any different?
I think as I fill out the form that there will probably be an evaluation form at the end.
There wasn't. Instead the evening ended with an announcement that fell flat:
"By the way, we've made a nice gift for you. And by the way, $15 would be a nice donation for it." We all understand. These things cost money. I gave my $15 on the way out.
As I entered the CoLab I saw a restaurant full of people. Yeah!
But though the chairs were full, there was hardly anything on the tables. A few drinks and no signs of food that I could see. For awhile I stood in the back near the awkward TAB waiting staff. Hired to wait on tables and sell food, when it wasn't an atmosphere to do so.
This stinks for the owner. He's going to take a dive tonight.
Facing Forward.
What looked to be about 200+ people, all were facing a stage. A speaker was on stage. A speaker i'd like to hear from, truly, but not tonight.
My heart sank lower as I began to realize that this CoLab was not some kind of collaborative Salon, or Literati open mic event, or Performance Art or a collage of experimental creative activities that might make us draw near to Jesus while getting to know one another. Except for three canvases brought to life on the sides of the stage (additional artists from Church of Our Saviour), this night didn't look like anything creative was getting generated from the majority of expectant spectator Artists who had gathered.
And there were A LOT of artists.
Who are they? Since I'd come in late, I wonder: Before I got here, had the people in the room had a chance to find out who they all are?
I saw some friends I've not seen in a long time. I saw people I'd have liked to get to know. I want to hug everyone. I want to find out:
Why did you come?
What about the arts are you most passionate?
How has art played a part in you knowing God better?
What are your dreams?
What are you afraid of?
If you had the resources to do it, what would you do with art to change the world?
The audiences' eyes and voices facing forward toward the speaker, watched musicians join him onstage. My heart sinks a little further. We're going to get to do what many of us had already done earlier that day at church: Worship our God corporately through music and a sermon.
I didn't come out tonight to go to church again.
I didn't come out tonight to go to church again.
Granted, it was good music, yes. A LOT of good. loud. music. And it was a good talk too.
As the music went on, I saw more people I longed to interact with, I got frustrated in the loudness of it all. I wanted to interact with people. I wanted to leave. But I held on, tried to enter into worship with an open heart. Asked God to free me from a critical spirit. Fellowship would eventually come.
I'm sure many who came were really, truly blessed.
And I really hate being so negative about it. It was probably an amazing event for many people there. The Lord probably met them and ministered to them through the well organized event. And as an event, it was a marvelous night.
But I'm old(er), and I'm tired.
I've been around a long time. And perhaps there will never be beautiful new clothes for the Bride of Christ. Time and again my expectations that innovation will eventually come to the church has been disappointed. I sound like a grumpy old curmudgeon talking like this. Who after all doesn't like WORSHIP? I hesitated to admit all of this because I sound like a pagan to be complaining.
HOWEVER,
I ardently love Jesus
and I'm a singer.
So, it's not that I don't like worship through music.
What it is, that has me a little rankled, is that I felt like I had been tricked. CoLab for the March 6 event was a misnomer.
I had watched the promo video and thought,
It doesn't really say what it IS. but it is fun. WHAT IS IT GOING TO BE EXACTLY? It seems to be just hype for an idea, but surely they'll figure out how to execute it by March 6.
Dear Lord, don't let the disappointed get jaded. Let us continue to strive for unity, even when we let one another down. Even if we offend. Even if what I've written here offends. Help us learn better how to spur one another on toward love and good Creative deeds! - May it be so.
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